Bless this Mess

There's this new song on the radio right now and I think that the writer looked into my life and said, "Ah, let's make a song about her...it could be a greatest hit."  Before you think I am bragging about myself, let me just share with you some of the lyrics.

I lost my keys, into the great unknown
Call me please, cuz I can't find my phone
This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust you know exactly what you're doing
It might not be what'd I would choose
But this is the stuff you use.

It is so me!  I go frantic when something throws a wrench into my highly organized, extremely perfected, down to a science schedule and to be honest, I think God has a little giggle.  Thankfully, when I settle down, I get to have a little giggle as well about my over-reaction and then God and I get to have a little chat about how to correct my behavior and hopefully the next time my freak-out-ometer will only reach yellow instead of red.

You know, I should have done my homework before "giving up fear" because it comes with a lot of
"inability baggage"...i.e. the inability to have patience.  When I fear something will go horribly wrong or let's be honest, when I fear it won't go my way, I lose the patience to find out just what and how God can turn that situation into something amazing, more amazing than I could ever imagine.  Anything from losing my keys, to opening up to my husband, to loving on my kids or making a new friend.  All of these things take time to do and I need to learn to let go of my wonderful but, admittingly, to tight schedule, let go of fear AND impatience , and allow God to something amazing or quiet honestly, I will miss it.

Thank you God for teaching me more lessons than I chose to learn on this journey.  I thought I was getting off pretty easy but I suppose you figure while I'm in the batting cage, you might as well keep throwing balls at me, huh? :-)  I will continue to do my best to hand you the bat so that I can actually learn these lessons rather than trying to do it on my own.  You Rock God!  I love you and thank you!