"Love keeps no record of wrongs"
I'm normally a kitchen sink kind of girl, especially with my husband. When we "fight", I love to pull the past into the present to make sure I win every time... but God (Hallelujah) has decided it is time to remedy this lovely trait of mine. He lodged this piece, just this one little piece (not even a whole stinkin' verse) of scripture into my stubborn head at the beginning of last week. Love keeps NO record of wrongs. So, I soaked it in, prayed over it, meditated upon it and just when I began to "get comfortable" with it, God tested it. Needless to say, I screwed it all up. I failed miserably within the first moments of recent confrontation. {My husband and I are fine now, for he is a patient man, and I am not above giving a much needed apology.}
Why God did not give us the wonderful gift he so lovingly portrays himself of forgetting our past transgressions once we ask for forgiveness, I do not know but longingly wish for it. Maybe it's because free will depends on memory. Maybe it is to learn how to lay down our flesh on a regular, moment by moment basis, molding us into something greater, something that more resembles His being or maybe we retain memory so that we know what we chose and remember what He brought us out of. Whatever the case may be, memory makes it very difficult to love as he does, keeping no record of wrongs. All that being said, I have no doubt that this is very doable for with Christ all things are just that and I accept the opportunity to love my husband and others just this way.
Once we release our hurts into the hands of Christ and love without restriction, healing and refinement occur. Thanks be to God!
