My Mountain Part II

Up to this point the Lord was continually filling me with His wisdom, not just on how to best navigate this mountain but in my life in general.  All too often, I worry about how I am going to get to my destination and in doing so I get tripped up on the hurdles and miss out on the beauty that is right in front of me.  Instead of relying on Him for guidance, I take control, get impatient, and try to rush to the finish.  The many scriptures that say, "In His timing" still aggravate me at times because when I am ready to be done, I ready to be done NOW!  The truth is, God's timing is not at all how we measure time.  He is, was, and always will be.  So when I am walking through a trial or learning something new that He has for me, it is to carry me through things ALWAYS, not just through this, this thing right now that I am facing.  He, possible, sees it as preparing me for what is to come.  When I have a victory or discovery or feel something revolutionary, it could be because of something that will come into play.  Make sense?  For example, I wrote this thing about Seth right before we got married.  It was about him being surrounded by a city in ruins.  The city represented his life but by the end of the day, he realized that the ground he had fallen to his knees on was the foundation in which he had built his life upon.  The foundation being Christ and Christ brought him back to his feet, protected his family and would rebuild the city the way He had intended.  After writing it, I was so overwhelmed with emotion and felt as if I had stumbled upon an insight into my husband.  Little did I know that it would be five years later that this "writing" would actually take place.  God knew!  He prepared me for it without my realizing.  He is, He was, and Always will be.

Back to my journey... Almost to the top, we could hear the wind whirling from all sides, as if it were spinning around the mountain like a cyclone.  Peeking our interest, my gaze went to the clouds.  They were motionless but just at that moment, my hair brushed across my face which was being warmed by the sun and breathlessly I sighed, "My Lord, such beauty you have created."  With that He replied, "You are the beauty, my beloved."  My hearted melted in a puddle on the ground and my vision blurred with tears.  How could the one who created all this look upon my dirty face and see beauty?  I was so humbled.  I gathered my composure and we finished our way to the top which over looked the frozen lake below and again I was in awe.  It was almost too much to absorb.  The wind quieted down and I turned to my friend after what seemed like an eternity of just staring at this heavenly place and said, "Before we leave, let's read some scripture."  Almost immediately, with her reading the first words, the wind whipped up again, from all around, engulfing us in every direction and again, I was overwhelmed with emotion and tears flowed.  It felt like God, in all His power, was breathing down on us as we read His word.  And with the last word read, the wind died down once more.  "Let's pray." I said.  And again, as I started glorifying His name in prayer, His breath was upon us.  It was the most amazing experience and my words can not possible bring it justice.  I know that the Lord is "not in the wind" but I truly believe He was showing us His gentle power through it.

That weekend was life changing and will never be forgotten.  God taught me so much and tough I may stumble over the lessons He gave me during that time, I pray I will be able to always go back to them and be pleasing to His sight.

I love you Abba!  Thank you for being so amazing.